Crazy Life

I am back in Canada now. It seems strange to think that only months ago I was half way across the world. We went and it was good. It was nice to be away... but something in me just didn't cling to Uganda the way I cling to Guatemala. But there was also a part of me that let go of something about Guatemala. It isn't so hard to be in Canada now as it was. In Uganda I found a culture who looked at me as a pile of money or with resentment. Those who were glad that we were there, wanted us there for what our North American money will give them. Not all of them. That is a large generalization but it was the reaction I saw the most other then the resentment from those who didn't know who we were or why we were in their country. I understand but it did not make me feel welcome and realistically I don't need to feel welcome where ever I go. That is not the point in going.
So we came back to Canada with new insight into ourselves and this world around us. It was strange to be back but so good. So good to be back in Canada where we are just as able to live. I was going to get a full-time job working in Graphic Design and life would just be good for awhile. I didn't know what I would do but there are things that I can do for God here. But God had other plans. 'A five year old boy needs a place to stay for a couple months'... we have an extra room in our house. Why not? So we took in this five year old boy for awhile... A couple months became over half a year and he is still with us. My full-time job long forgotten. I was so looking forward to that, like I had never looked forward to a job before.
Now we are expecting our first child in October. How I waited for that to happen... 2 and a half years I waited to become pregnant. 2 and a half years I have cried and morned that I did not think I could but now I am. Having morning sickness with a five year old is hard. At least he enjoys playing by himself. At least he is an amazingly obedient kid (he just listens) and so it is a little easier but still not easy at all. I have never had morning sickness... never been pregnant and before this boy I have never had a child in my house.
But this is life and I am very excited for this baby. I think it will be a girl. I think she will have red hair like my husband. I think she will be beautiful... after she gets rid of her baby wrinkles. :P
Well, I suppose that is an update... though nothing like what I planned to write. My plans change as life goes on. God has different things in mind for me then what I would have for myself.