Tuesday, January 8, 2002

journal 1h

Good morning! Actually it is 11:30pm but I have got this snuggly morning feeling right now. Voice and Spanish classes are great! I love my spanish class. I am the youngest and the only one in high school. It is a collage course but I don't care, it distracts me from my normal hum-drum school routeen. Soon it will snow and I pray for help that I don't fall into a winter fut again. I like to be happy but lately my emotional range has gone from happy to sad to mad to overflowing love. Happy is the one I like to concentrate on since none of these emotions have a very good reason. Prehaps this is just me changing from girl to woman. I know it's happening because I see the changes in myself. I thank God for these changes and pray for patience. i am still part girl and that is just fine. help me be more like you, Lord. I am so far from perfect but you said "A mustard seed of faith could move mountains." I need more faith, I know I believe but am i totally surrendered? I have let so much go in the past year, now I must give everything else. Help me Lord because I can't get through life on my own. I need you. My life is in your hands. Thy will be done!!! I give you all understanding, my job, my brother, my parents, my friends, my lost friends, my life and everything else. Life would be scary without you. I believe the greatest happiness comes through you. Please give me this happiness and faith like Job. I believe anything is possible through you. Take my life, this was your gift when you died, now I will accept you, I will let you into my heart. I have never let anyone close and the idea is scarey but I trust you alone.
Amen

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