I am here in NB now. Everything has finally calmed. Thank you God. I feel so stress free even with the lack of sleep. I miss mom. I hope I have opportunity for some sort of communication with her next year. This has been a wonderful couple of days. I went to Teresa's youth. It was really cool... for young people. I felt so old. I'm sure I was closer to the age of the leaders than the youth. Well, I best let Teresa sleep. Her dad wanted us to be 'rested' for tomorrow. Good greif! I realize it is time to act older. I am nearly an adult and people see me as a young teen. I don't want to be treated like that. I am way past that and glad too. God, teach me how to act and show me what to want. I don't want to be hurt, Lord. I feel to be in any serious relationship now would really hurt me. I still feel the pain from years past. I don't want anymore. Good night, Lord. Love ya. Amen