journal 1y

So, God. I really want to do everything for you. I feel nothing at the moment. I really like that energy you gave me. I know it was directly from you. Why can't I share it? I am so frustrated. Why can't I share the most important element in my life? I really want to but I don't. I want to be baptised but I have to take the initiative to ask. Give me the courage. Oh, God! I was so excited, now I am numb. Please, I want it back, please.